Joe's Venting Thread (aka Joe's a typical teenage boy scrub)

Hey even if no one else is there, I'll always be here! And I'm sure a lot of people at the forum will be too!

I know it's difficult, and whenever people give you advice you've already tried you get annoyed, or just anything anyone says you get annoyed because they couldn't possibly understand. Like no matter how much you explain it doesn't really make a difference because they've never went through the same turmoil that you have. Sorry if that doesn't really make any sense but it's really difficult to talk to people about things like this unless they've experienced it themselves?

Besides, turning 18 isn't all it's cracked up to be anyway. :/

hhh I can't believe anybody even read all that still, but thank you so much - it's not even so much that I keep getting advice I've already tried as much as it's the same advice I've been using. 

Like, everyone tells me "just wait. Just wait it out." But as you just said, turning 18 isn't all it's cracked up to be.

For example, I want to go to college, and I have a pretty good academic record so I think I can, and my parents fully expect me to - however, I don't have a job, and nobody's called me back for some odd reason? 

But the main thing is, I can't get money from my parents from college if I come out/leave the house when I'm 18. There's just no way.

And so that leaves me with a dilemma, suffer the emotional abuse that I've been getting from them for another year and a half or be free of that and most likely not get a college education, perpetually screwing me up for a good amount of years?

I don't know, and I feel so stupid to be having to make all these decisions right now. I don't want to make any of these decisions. Some days, I ask myself, "You know, Joe, why couldn't you just be normal? Like your sister Jenny? Then you wouldn't have a single care in the world other than homework and which college to pick." 

But, no, I'm not Jenny, the high school freshman sister who's more popular, more attractive, more Christ-model-like-my-mother than me. She's the favorite, the one my parents care aboht and compare to me, because she's the oldest one that's not me.

And I'm tired of living this life, I really am, because I keep getting the same advice - "There's nothing you can do about it, Joe. Just wait it out." 

And, honestly? That's the only advice I'll ever have, really. And it's really shitty advice, too, but it's the best I've got, and I've got to deal with that.

There's absolutrly nothing I can do about any of this.

And I have to be okay with that.

(Sorry for ranting a whole lot in unrelation to your reply-).

Nah, my parents don't do chores or anything like that, even though we've all asked multiple times. I mean we have chores to do, but we dont get paid for it (because we "have no money", according to the woman who just bought a 25k car. Judt paid for it. Not in payments or anything). 

And believe me, thank you so much for reminding me to get away because i need to work that out, especially this summer. Because 1) i can't drive yet because my parents refuse to pay for the required drivers ed class, 2) they dont trust me outside the house hanging out in the neighborhood with friends, and 3) They banned me from ever going to my best friend's house because of a grudge with her mother.

But, I am definitely trying to hang out in some shape or form this summer, so thank you for reminding me of that 

Hmmm I'm going to vent again just because I feel like really venting

Also my autocorrect sucks again because I switched keyboards so bear with that haha lets hope there's not any huge errors yeah?

And once again if u read this I love you and you're great A+ to you

So basically I still have the same exact problems like its so stupid

I love my parents like I really do but I get so angry at them because I'm sure they love me because I'm their child but they really don't know what's best for me, they really really don't. Because they're always ignoring me and while I get that if you have 5 children things get busy, ignoring your oldest child is just plain rude

Plus they always say I'm really weird and strange and that's why nobody likes me. Thanks guys love you too? Like literally the other day I said I wanted to buy this frog watering can for one dollar and my mom almost slapped me in the store because apparently that's a stupid thing to do and that makes me the weirdest child on the planet

And I love Empress Rose (◕‿◕✿) so much for getting it for me though like omg thank you so much

And its funny though because I made the mistake of telling my mom my friend Rose bought it and she was like "well if you take it home I will not drive you anywhere with it" and like geez fine I'll give it to my friend Tyler so he can bring it to school for me??? Like gosh rude much??? Fuck out my face mum pls

I just get so angry at my parents sometimes like they're making me pay money out of my life insurance money for marching band, 133 dollars a year because that's 25% and I complained once about it and they're like "you should be happy we're paying any of it sweetie " like omfggg

But you know what? You know what??? I wouldn't complain about that usually because I get money issues but

They're paying my sister's, Jenny, the perfect child's, complete color guard fees which are $650 a year. All of it. She doesn't have to pay a fucking penny??? And they also bought my sister who JUST STARTED BAND a brand new top of the line flute and what do I have??? A shitty ass clarinet that I have to work my ass off to even play first part, even though its been shitty lately and I'm probably going to be kicked down to second

I mean I don't know about you but I think its pretty dumb when the only things my parents have money for me on is stuff either everyone else got like a new pair of socks, food, or a vacation, because my parents literally bought a 25k car a few months ago, no payments or anything they just straight out fucking bought it I know I said that already but... Idk we "have no money" wtf ever

I bet we'll move into a mansion but somehow we'll still have no money jk lmao

Ok but, family matters aside

That whole having no friends thing is still bothering me but the other thing is is that the friends I do have, I get so jealous of their parents. Like, their parents seem like angels compared to mine? Like, your parents let you do stuff? They care about your friends? They care about your interests? What? That's crazy, your parents do stuff for /you/? No way, no way no way man I can't believe that.

And so I get jealous and that's always bad and awkward cause whenever I see my best friend who I'm slowly fading away from because my mom banned me from going to their house

Yeah not sure if I mentioned this but when I came out as bisexual like 2 years ago my mom was like "omg!! I'm going to text Joe's best friend's mom to see if she can coax his best friend to give me Joe's phone's password!!" And my best friend's mom said "no, please keep us out of your family drama" and MY MOM'S HAD A GRUDGE ON MY BEST FRIEND'S MOM FOR ALMOST 2 YEARS NOW? And like... She was like... My second mom. I genuinely liked her and I felt like she cared about me more than my mom ever did but she probably doesn't think its much

But whenever I see her and she asks me how I am I just strain a "good, you?" Out of myself and I was really happy when she quit her job to get a way better one and then she got it, but I just would feel way too awkward being like "hey um yeah I feel like you're my second mom because I feel like you care about me more than my mom" because that sounds rude to me somehow like what if she just thinks of me as her child's friend yknow nothing special??? Idk man like... Ugh

And so whenever I meet my friends parents I'm feel really really bad because I always feel like I'm too clingy almost?? Too social with them I guess because I don't have parents that care about what goes on in my life, it seems

Lol I said I wouldn't talk family but I did hahahaha

Well my only other issue really is the fact that I have so many hard classes next year plus I have to work my ass off in band to actually live up to my name and be decent so. Yeah. That puts a lot of stress on me especially when I have to memorize the music this summer, I'm terrible at memorizing music I really am. But yeah that's all so yeah.

Thank yo uso much if you read all this emo crap :p

Tmw ur mum fights u over the gender of GLASSES above all things

I don't know if I'm actually going to do this but if I'm not online for a few days no need to worry

Just not ok I guess